stress.

A lot has been changing this past week! Good and bad things. I’ve been getting really excited about fall, decorating the house and making fall playlists and just feeling generally cozy. There are at least three fall candles in every room. Also, I got a kitten. I’ve been trying to adopt one for a littleContinue reading “stress.”

stress & bad feelings.

So it hit me yesterday just how much freakin’ work I still have to do. Late in the afternoon on Saturday, I started feeling super sad and upset and just kind of blah for no clear reason, and when I woke up yesterday morning the feeling hadn’t gone away. I practiced yoga and meditated andContinue reading “stress & bad feelings.”

june 20th.

June 20th. Twelve weeks ago tomorrow. It’s strange to think about the time before June 20th, because it’s hard reconcile the person I am now with the person I was then. It’s hard to think about the choices I made for myself, because I can’t imagine making a lot of them now. June 20th isContinue reading “june 20th.”

balance.

Keeping up my routines has felt like a little bit of a struggle for the past week. I’m good about the mornings, but it’s been extra difficult to do my full evening routine. In particular, I haven’t done yin yoga in about a week, or any before-bed yoga or stretching. And usually I read aContinue reading “balance.”

recharge.

Today I spent my time with my friends (the ones who live with me, I’m obviously still quarantining). It was amazing, after such a hectic week, to be able to hang out and reconnect with the people around me. There is no long post today, because it’s the weekend and I chose to dedicate myContinue reading “recharge.”

new home.

So I am officially moved into my new apartment! All of the furniture is built, all of the boxes are unpacked, all of the cabinets are filled, everything is organized. I don’t think I’ve ever felt as at home in any place I’ve lived as I do here. I feel like, for the first timeContinue reading “new home.”

wow.

WOW. The last three days have been nothing but pure chaos. But finally, today, the chaos has abated. Everything is unpacked and organize, all of our new furniture is build, and the only packages I’m waiting on are throw blankets and print hangers and other cutesy type things. There’s definitely still a lot to do,Continue reading “wow.”

gratitude.

This post is a little different from my others. It’s a little less structured. I’m trying to process things, so this is sort of a real-time view of me doing that. There’s not really a plan here. I’m just feeling. I saw that someone said the deaths of celebrities often give us outlets to grieve interpersonal pain, so maybe that’s what this is. I don’t know. I’m just processing.

drinking.

Drinking really is the weirdest subject to talk about. Mostly because, at least at my age (freshly 22), when you say you don’t want a drink, people get really confused and judgy. They ask what’s wrong or why you’re not drinking—people almost get mad about it, and they respond by pressuring to drink with them.Continue reading “drinking.”