going through it.

So I realized today that I really have not been good, like at all, for the last few weeks. And it’s really hard for me to talk about feeling bad during the bad times—I don’t like talking about it until after I’m already through it and on the other side, and I can be allContinue reading “going through it.”

big things.

So it’s been a few days since I’ve posted anything! There’s been sort of a lot going on—not like actual things going on, but a lot of emotional struggles and changes and that sort of thing, and I just haven’t really been in a headspace where writing about it on here would’ve helped. But nowContinue reading “big things.”

embodying “ugh.”

I have been totally uninspired to write these past few days, both work-writing and writing on here. I’ve just felt…blocked. A lack of inspiration isn’t really it. I think a better way to describe it is almost feeling like I’d lost the ability to write. Obviously I know that’s not true. I think it’s moreContinue reading “embodying “ugh.””

adjusting.

I always forget what an adjustment it is to move into a new place with new people. I forgot how it tests your boundaries and forces you to reassert who you are and how you are. Or maybe I’ve just never had boundaries before so it didn’t matter. That might be it. But this timeContinue reading “adjusting.”

stress & bad feelings.

So it hit me yesterday just how much freakin’ work I still have to do. Late in the afternoon on Saturday, I started feeling super sad and upset and just kind of blah for no clear reason, and when I woke up yesterday morning the feeling hadn’t gone away. I practiced yoga and meditated andContinue reading “stress & bad feelings.”

gratitude.

This post is a little different from my others. It’s a little less structured. I’m trying to process things, so this is sort of a real-time view of me doing that. There’s not really a plan here. I’m just feeling. I saw that someone said the deaths of celebrities often give us outlets to grieve interpersonal pain, so maybe that’s what this is. I don’t know. I’m just processing.

journaling.

Journaling is sacred. It’s one of my favorite things in the world to do, it’s one of the only things in the world I’ve spent literally my entire life doing. From the time I learned how to write I’ve been journaling, filling up pretty notebooks with dreams and musings and the details of my life.Continue reading “journaling.”

yin yoga.

One of my favorite things to do these days is yin yoga. I had never heard of yin yoga until a couple months ago, when one of my roommates hosted a little yoga night in our living room. Basically, yin yoga is the practice of holding a yoga pose for three to five minutes. MyContinue reading “yin yoga.”

listening.

My biggest issue lately has been listening, or I guess not listening, to my body. I have a bad habit of pushing myself beyond what’s good for me because I distrust my instincts. In the past, I’ve overworked myself to ridiculous extremes because I thought that’s what was best for me. I thought the harderContinue reading “listening.”