going through it.

So I realized today that I really have not been good, like at all, for the last few weeks. And it’s really hard for me to talk about feeling bad during the bad times—I don’t like talking about it until after I’m already through it and on the other side, and I can be allContinue reading “going through it.”

stress.

A lot has been changing this past week! Good and bad things. I’ve been getting really excited about fall, decorating the house and making fall playlists and just feeling generally cozy. There are at least three fall candles in every room. Also, I got a kitten. I’ve been trying to adopt one for a littleContinue reading “stress.”

big things.

So it’s been a few days since I’ve posted anything! There’s been sort of a lot going on—not like actual things going on, but a lot of emotional struggles and changes and that sort of thing, and I just haven’t really been in a headspace where writing about it on here would’ve helped. But nowContinue reading “big things.”

embodying “ugh.”

I have been totally uninspired to write these past few days, both work-writing and writing on here. I’ve just felt…blocked. A lack of inspiration isn’t really it. I think a better way to describe it is almost feeling like I’d lost the ability to write. Obviously I know that’s not true. I think it’s moreContinue reading “embodying “ugh.””

adjusting.

I always forget what an adjustment it is to move into a new place with new people. I forgot how it tests your boundaries and forces you to reassert who you are and how you are. Or maybe I’ve just never had boundaries before so it didn’t matter. That might be it. But this timeContinue reading “adjusting.”

hair cuts & changes.

Here’s a question I’ve been asking myself a lot lately: is this actually a good decision, or am I subconsciously self-destructing? What brought this question on today, you might ask? It’s pretty frivolous, but my hair. Every year around this time, I get the urge to do something drastic to my hair. Four years ago,Continue reading “hair cuts & changes.”

progress.

Today I am feeling so excited and happy and proud of myself for all of the progress I’ve made over the last few months! This morning, my yoga practice was much more intense than what I’ll usually do in the mornings, and it felt so good to see that I could actually do it! UntilContinue reading “progress.”

june 20th.

June 20th. Twelve weeks ago tomorrow. It’s strange to think about the time before June 20th, because it’s hard reconcile the person I am now with the person I was then. It’s hard to think about the choices I made for myself, because I can’t imagine making a lot of them now. June 20th isContinue reading “june 20th.”

journal #1.

This morning, I filled my first daily journal. I’d started using it on June 20th, and had an entry and list of 10 gratitudes for every single day since then! It feels like my first piece of physical evidence that I’m growing, changing, and healing. And also evidence that I have habits! Good habits! AndContinue reading “journal #1.”