going through it.

So I realized today that I really have not been good, like at all, for the last few weeks. And it’s really hard for me to talk about feeling bad during the bad times—I don’t like talking about it until after I’m already through it and on the other side, and I can be allContinue reading “going through it.”

stress.

A lot has been changing this past week! Good and bad things. I’ve been getting really excited about fall, decorating the house and making fall playlists and just feeling generally cozy. There are at least three fall candles in every room. Also, I got a kitten. I’ve been trying to adopt one for a littleContinue reading “stress.”

big things.

So it’s been a few days since I’ve posted anything! There’s been sort of a lot going on—not like actual things going on, but a lot of emotional struggles and changes and that sort of thing, and I just haven’t really been in a headspace where writing about it on here would’ve helped. But nowContinue reading “big things.”

embodying “ugh.”

I have been totally uninspired to write these past few days, both work-writing and writing on here. I’ve just felt…blocked. A lack of inspiration isn’t really it. I think a better way to describe it is almost feeling like I’d lost the ability to write. Obviously I know that’s not true. I think it’s moreContinue reading “embodying “ugh.””

choice.

I had sort of a rough day today. I felt really bad about my body, and it was really frustrating because in the moment, I could find a way to feel better. I struggled to love my body, despite how badly I want to. I felt so frustrated that I am always conscious of myContinue reading “choice.”

adjusting.

I always forget what an adjustment it is to move into a new place with new people. I forgot how it tests your boundaries and forces you to reassert who you are and how you are. Or maybe I’ve just never had boundaries before so it didn’t matter. That might be it. But this timeContinue reading “adjusting.”

rbg.

Today is honestly just so awfully confusing. Personally, I feel so happy. I got my hair done yesterday and it made me feel so connected to myself and so beautiful. And then last night, I finished putting together the last of the furniture for the new apartment, so finally, everything is finished and looks soContinue reading “rbg.”

hair cuts & changes.

Here’s a question I’ve been asking myself a lot lately: is this actually a good decision, or am I subconsciously self-destructing? What brought this question on today, you might ask? It’s pretty frivolous, but my hair. Every year around this time, I get the urge to do something drastic to my hair. Four years ago,Continue reading “hair cuts & changes.”

progress.

Today I am feeling so excited and happy and proud of myself for all of the progress I’ve made over the last few months! This morning, my yoga practice was much more intense than what I’ll usually do in the mornings, and it felt so good to see that I could actually do it! UntilContinue reading “progress.”